so finally i’ve decided to get off my lazy bumbum and update…whoaa…itz been months and so much as happened in that time. too many events to list from all sorts of mini parties, movie nites, and even candy carnival. but i definitely want to thanx all those who surprised me at memories of japan for my bday. i was so blown away to see all those familiar faces once again, especially my long time friend, jenny luc..lol! itz been years since we last talked but seeing her that night, it was as if we never drifted apart. i felt instantly connected again and itz something that i really value in your friendship. thank you for all those who attended or took the time to write me an ecard/email like syd, grace and karen. especially, thanx to becca for taking the time to organize the whole surprise party and for a day i’ll always remember. for the record, let me just say being blind folded is a scary way to travel around town.

so, itz been awhile since i’ve done some serious thinking about doing things to make my life more meaningful but the past two weeks has definitely been filled with a lot of personal reflection. it all started when tony campolo spoke at our church and expressed a need for a generation of not just believers of christ but true disciples living out what we believe in our actions. i’m sure a lot of us can attest in believing in God but itz more then just believing. he said, even the evil one believes in God, so whatz the difference? itz not only about believing but more about being a disciple of God and fulfilling our purpose as a believer. he challenged us that night to do something like volunteer for urban promise or sponsor a child from world vision. i definitely felt a strong tugging in my heart to do what i know was right but didn’t want to commit to.

by the end of the night i did find myself at the world vision display table flipping through pamphlets of kids that need to be sponsored. i was very reluctant to commit even tho i knew everything becca was saying was true. grrr…why does she always have to be right! in the end, i did sponsor a child but did so feeling pressured and not of my own free will. before leaving church to head home i asked God that if this is what He wanted me to do He’ll show me. no sooner did i ask God, did the signs start coming. the song better days by goo goo dolls started playing and the lyrics just spoke to me. the following sunday i got a full dose of reality...you will die...number your days aright. as i sat there taking in the sermon, the tears just started streaming down my face. thoughts of one day not having my parents around, the lose of those i deeply care about, un-resolved issues, a life not completely fulfilled consumed my mind and my heart. i’ve been blessed with so much and have the life that i have not because i did anything to deserve it all, but because God has willed it for me. i have since moved from this idea that sponsoring a child is something that i should do, to this is something that i want to do. i’ve filled out the paper work and sent out my first payment. i’m so excited to see what God will do in her life and to hear all about it in the letters that i’ll get to read.

"teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom."